Mean Lyrics

Pink Mean Lyrics:
You used to hold the door for me
Now you can't wait to leave
You used to send me flowers if
You fucked up in my dreams
I used to make you laugh with all
the silly shit I did
Now you roll your eyes and walk away
And shake your head

When the spark has gone
And the candles are out
And the song is done
And there's no more sound
Whispers turn to yelling
And I'm thinking

How did we get so mean?
How do we just move on?
How do you feel in the morning when it comes
And everythings undone?
Is it 'cause we wanna be free?
Well that's not me.
Normally I'm so strong
I just can't wake up on the floor
Like a thousand times before
knowing that forever wont be

Always sentimental when I think of how it was
When love was sweet and new and we just
Couldn't get enough
The shower, it reminds me you'd undress me with your eyes
Now you never touch me and you tell me that you're tired
You know it gets so sad when it all goes bad
And all you think about is all the fun you've had
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All those sorrys ain't never gonna mean a thing

How did we get so mean?
How do we just move on?
How do you feel in the morning when it comes
And everythings undone?
Is it 'cause we wanna be free?
Well that's not me.
Normally I'm so strong
I just can't wake up on the floor
Like a thousand times before
knowing that forever wont be

I know we said somethings that we can never take back
It's like a train wreck, trying to hit the right track
We opened up the wine and we just let it breathe
but we shoulda drank it down while it was still sweet
It all goes bad eventually

Now do we stay together 'cause were scared to be alone?
We got so used to this abuse it kinda feels like home
But my baby, I just really wanna know..

How did we get so mean?
How do we just move on?
How do you feel in the morning when it comes
And everythings undone?
Is it 'cause we wanna be free?
Well that's not me.
Normally I'm so strong
I just can't wake up on the floor
Like a thousand times before
knowing that forever wont be

How do we just move on?
How do you feel in the morning when it comes
And everythings undone?
Is it 'cause we wanna be free?
Well that's not me.
Normally I'm so strong
I just can't wake up on the floor
Like a thousand times before
knowing that forever wont be

F*** YOU KATRINA

My City!!





This is Katrina slamming us, from the front door of Children's Hospital







Worn out and Working hard at Children's Hospital after the storm

Life as I know it

So Hi again! It's Saturday night... well actually Sunday morning. I'm chillin at my apartment after a crazy week. Well after last weekend, I came back to NOLA Saturday night. Went to work saturday and sunday night, then monday woke up and decided I was going to use a sick day...so I hung around a bit and relaxed then I got a phone call from Heather with all the funeral arrangement details. So then I had to decided what I wanted to do about going to the funeral, I really wanted to go but plane tickets were freakin outrageous and I knew my parents would probably pitch a huge fit if I told them I wanted to drive to Dallas (7+ hours) by myself. So I had made up my mind later that night that I would most likely go so I headed over to barnes and noble and bought myself a book on CD and some books on San Francisco for my trip in a couple weeks. So I then went home read the whole book about San Fran and went to bed...oh FYI before I went to bed I prayed to help make the right decision about driving to Dallas and to help my parents understand. So I woke up early got dressed packed my bags and called my parents, told me dad that I was heading to Dallas for the funeral and he was really cool about it...So off I went! So I got to Dallas about 6pm ...checked into my high class hotel...ok so maybe it wasn't so high class but it's what Mrs. Burson recommended! I spoke to Marshall and made plans to meet up with him and David for dinner. So we did that went to Don Pablos for dinner then on my way back I met up with Heather so we could go to a Wal-Mart that wasn't in a dry county to buy a bottle of wine...so we did. We went back to the SUPER 8 and stayed up until 5am drank the bottle of wine (um the 1.5L bottle) and talked. Then about 5am is when the Fritt's arrived so Heather headed back to her house, and I went to sleep. Alicia and Kirk stayed with me.
The next morning we slept in until it was time to get ready for the funeral. The funeral was nice and everything went really well. It was actually a really nice, uplifting service. This was actually my first funeral service for someone in our church I've always been to catholic funerals. Anyways, we all stayed at the the memorial service for a long time talking. Then we all went to the Olive Garden for dinner, the Fritts Clan, Me, Heather and her family, the Crocketts, the Masons, and the local elder from Dallas. It was nice, then after that everyone left. The Fritts headed back to Nashville. I went back to heather's house with her and Daral. I hung out there with them until about midnight, when I said my good byes left to go back to my hotel.
So I leave, it's only like a 15 minute drive, get onto the interstate and I'm cruising along going about 75 (well it was actually 78 apparently) when I see these blue, red and white lights behind me..."OH Shit!" that's the thought that I had... Actually I do believe I said it out loud to myself. So I pull over. The little texas state trooper gets out and does the usual license/insurance crap, then ask where I was coming from, going? etc... and tells me I was going 78mph.. I said OK...then he ask me if I knew what the speed limit was...I then reply 70! And he then informs me that its 65mph...Oh I say! (come one...since when is the speed limit on an interstate 65????...anyways... long story short.. I just got a warning! HA!!! YEA!!!!
So back to the hotel I go and sleep!!
So the next morning, Thursday, I head back to Baton Rouge, figure I'll hang out with the parents until the weekend when I have to go back to work.
When I get back in town around 5, I stop by my parents shop and they have the news on and little did I know there is a hurricane hitting southern florida and it's expected to move back into the gulf...to most likely, they say, hit northern florida! WOw I say...guess I should've turned on the news while I was out of town! So whatever... I go back to my parents house and chill! Well Friday I get up leisurely and decide I need to go spend money, So I spent the afternoon at the mall bought a couple new dresses for the feast, and a new bathing suit, and make-up and other random crap! And i got a manicure and pedicure..which was great!! Then I met my parents for dinner at On the Border...which was pretty good. Check the news and it looks like this hurricane may head more towards Louisiana but no telling at that point. so I play on the computer then go to bed around midnight or so. I then get woken up around 1 by a phone call from Jen...yeah she had said she'd call me back later! Well that was certainly an interesting phone call I do have to say... I won't say more on here my dear reader. So Saturday morning my mom wakes me up with Breakfast in bed...aww...I know! And tells me how the hurricane looks like it's going to hit NOLA...nice I think to myself...then I occurs to me that my phone rang at like 8am this morning and it was my friend April from work. So I figure I should call her back b/c who knows that they are doing at work with the hurricane etc.. So I talk to her and well they haven't made any official decision yet..so anyways, at noon the news still says the hurricane is headed for NOLA and it's going to be a bad one...the mayor and governor etc are all on the news telling people about voluntary and Mandatory evacuations...etc.. So I go to church, during church I got a phone call from my friend Kristen who also works at Childrens, so right after church I check her message then I figure I should probably check my messages at my house, and of course I have a ton...hmm.. should of done that earlier. Well there is a message from the charge nurse saying that since I"m scheduled to work tomorrow night (sunday) that I need to be on standby and pack a bag to bring with me when I come in. Nice...then i find out that at 4pm they started the contraflow, which means all roads lead out of the city and only like 2 will let you in.. they turn all of the interstate traffic one way out of new orleans. GREAT! So anyways, after having dinner with my mom I head on to New Orleans, quite an eery (sp?) feeling being alone on the road , with just a couple other cars going in your direction and lots of cars going the other way. So I made it back here around 8:30 then I try to go to the grocery store to get some stuff for work...if I'm going to have to camp out there! Well guess what? Wal-Mart has boarded up and got the hell outta dodge...the place was shut down...nice!! Thankfully Winn-Dixie was open so I went and got a few things. Then headed home! It's nice to finally be home..so I started packing my bag with scrubs and such! Now I'm just chillin! I was watching the weather channel and they are all freking out...this one hurricane guy thinks this may be "THE ONE" !! Ya know the infamous big storm that will dump the lake into the city...for those of you that don't know.. New orleans is below sea level and is surrounded by water...the river, gulf, marsh, and lake ponchatrain. Since we are below sea level...what is actually considered the shore-line is north of the lake! really reassuring!!!!
Well anyways.. guess I'll run for now and go watch some more weather channel!
Later...well that is if New Orleans still exist and I survive the storm camping out at Children's Hospital!
-Exie

sooo

So it's 10:30 at night I'm chillin at my parents house....YES they FINALLY got a computer so I have something to entertain myself with at 11 at night when they are asleep and I'm wide ass awake. I use to always be on the phone but um...that person doesnt' really call me anymore...punkass! :)
So, anyways, tonights been pretty sad though I got a phone call from Alicia at like 8pm saying that Mr. Burson, my friend Heather's dad had just died! The real clincher was that Heather herself did not even know yet b/c she was in the car on her way to visit her dad, in the hospital, and her mom didn't want to tell her while she was int he car.
I'm really confused about so many things right now...Especially the deaths of so many of our ministers... i mean man! Mr. McNair, Mr. Gregory, Mr. Ogwyn and now Mr. Burson!! I'm really not understanding this all.
I hope I'm able to go to the funeral, I should be able to if it's in Dallas..so we'll see.

I'm incredbly bored right now...I don't have much to do... I guess I could go to bed. Which i'm sure I will do pretty soon. I'm not that tired though. I was cancelled from work last night...like at 5pm...after I'd already slept all day, which is usually how it works. So i was up all last night...actually at 1am I went on a taco bell run for my friends at work and brought them taco bell. Then I came home and went to sleep around 3am. I haven't heard from any of my travel nursing agencies today! Hopefully Monday I'll hear something from some of them... i need to call a couple of them actually. I'm not sure where I want to go. I sort want to go ahead and go out to Cali on my first assignment but I also am kind of interested in this position in winston-salem, NC that one agency is presenting me for. So we'll see, i really need to fast about all this...and other things! Man do I really need to fast and Pray about other things! it's really hard working night and fasting, b/c I never can get my schedule right to plan it! I've really got to get my butt in gear though.
So tomorrow is church here in Port Allen/Baton Rouge. Wonder how that is all going to go. Wonder if Melissa and I will talk? It's so freakin weird between us. Another factor into me being anxious about the feast. I think I finally got my accomodations figured out though, i'm going to stay with michele and Jason fritts. I just didn't like the way my other options were turning out. I feel really weird about the feast this year. It's hard to explain but there are a lot of different factors that are making me anxious. Plus my mom is giving me a hard time about not spending the feast with her, since I'm going to be moving and see won't see me much and the feast is family time...blah blah blah! I just don't see it! to me the feast is time to spend with God's people and observe His holy days and who better to spend it with than my church friends who I rarely see!
ARGH
Ok so I think i'm going to run for now...
later,
exie


"are you happy now?"

100 things about me

100 things about me you probably didn't want to know....


100 little things you don't know about me...

1. Name: Exie Laura Howell

2. Nicknames: X, sexy exie, E, etc...

3. Birthday: July 25, 1981
4. Place of Birth: Women's Hospital Baton Rouge, La
5. Zodiac Sign: Leo
6. Male or Female: Female
8. School: LSU, Our Lady of Holy Cross College

9. Occupation: Registered Nurse (RN)
10. Residence: River Ridge/New Orleans, La
11. Screen Name: exiern@msn.com on MSN, exielaura on AIM

__Your Appearance___

12. Hair Color: Dark Brown
13. Hair Length: Long

14. Eye color: Blue...sometimes green
15. Best Feature: my eyes and my personality
16. Height: 5 feet 9 inches
17. Braces? yep, had them

18. Glasses? yeah but I wear contancts most of the time
19. Piercings: just 2 in each ear
21. Righty or Lefty: righty

___Your 'Firsts'___

22. First best friend: probably my cousin Melissa
23. First Award: multiplication tables in 3rd grade I remember I got a cake and a trophy
24. First sport you joined: tennis
25. First pet: misse, an akita
26. First Real Vacation: Disney World
27. First Concert: Diana Ross when I was really young...first real concert was Tom Petty in 1995
28. First Love: Jason Nelson

___ Favorites___

29. Movie: Wedding Crashers or Napolean Dynamite
30. TV: Laguna Beach/ House/The Family Guy
31. Color(s): pink, black
33. Band: Incubus, Fall Out Boy, My Chemical Romance

34. Song Right Now: XO by Fall Out Boy
35. Friend: Sarah Russell and Jen Hall
36. Candy: Peanut M&Ms
37. Sport to Play: Volleyball and Tennis
38. Restaurant: PF Changs, Chicagos (in BR), Sake Cafe

39. Favorite brand to wear: Gap
40. Place: The beach
41. School Subject: Peer counseling

42. Animal: Dogs
43. Book: Da Vinci Code, Lady in Waiting (though I don't seem to apply it to my own life very well)
44. Magazine: INStyle, AJN,
45. Shoes: Manolo Blahniks....but since I don't own any yet...my favorite pair that I do own would be my coach blk slingbacks or my Carlos Santana blk strappy heels

___Currently___

46. Feeling: lonely and tired

47. Single or Taken? single
48. Have a crush? of course
49. Eating: drinking a sprite
51. Typing: umm...yeah
52. Online?: yes
53. Listening To: just got done listening to Collide by Howie Day
54. Thinking About: my life
55. Wanting To: talk to a certain person

56. Watching: the screen in front of me
57. Wearing: Gap Jeand and Pink Tee Shirt

Future___

58. Want Kids? yes a few
59. Want to be Married? definitely

61. Where do you want to live? by the beach...cali if we're rich, if not...Florida or maybe S.C. or something...
62. Car? A Tahoe or Yukon and a sweet little sports car....lexus or Benz

__Which is Better With The Opposite Sex?___

63. Hair color: usually go for dark haired guys but doesn't matter
64. Hair length: Short
65. Eye Color: blue
67. Cute or Sexy: sexy
68. Lips or Eyes: Eyes

69. Hugs or Kisses: kisses!!!!
70. Short or Tall: taller than me preferable
71. Easygoing or serious: easygoing but knows when to be serious
72. Romantic or Spontaneous: spontaneous
73. Fatty or Skinny: up not a fatty but not skinny either

74. Sensitive or Loud: both
75. Hook-up or Relationship: relationship would be nice for once
76. Sweet or Caring: caring

77. Trouble Maker or Hesitant One: Trouble maker!!!!

___Have you ever?___

78. Kissed a Stranger: yes
79. Had Alcohol: yes
80. Smoked: yes
81. Run Away From Home: no

82. Broken a bone: nope
83. Gotten an X-ray: yes
85. Broken Someone’s Heart: yeah I think so

86. Broken Up With Someone: yeah....well kinda...hmm.
87. Cried When Someone died: yes
88. Cried At School: yes

___Do You Believe In___

89. God: yes
90. Miracles:yes

91. Love At First sight: not really
92. Ghosts: i believe in angels and demons but not "ghost" per se

93. Aliens: no
94. Soul Mates: yes
95. Heaven: yes

96. Hell: not exactly
97. Angels: yes

98. Kissing on The first Date: maybe
99. Horoscopes: no

___Answer Truthfully___

100. Is there someone you want but you know you can't have because they dont realize your their one and only? i dont know if im their one and only i just know i want them and cant have them. (that's what the guy before me put...and well that pretty much sums it up)

My Birthday Party

Went to Ninfas in baton rouge for margies and mexican food, then drove back to New Orleans (my friend Barry drove us all), went to his place for a little bit. Then we all went down to The Pub in the quarter had a great time...and yes I wore the princess hat ALL NIGHT LONG!


Shelley and I at Ninfas



Shelley, me and Anne at Ninfas



Me and Shell



Shelley, Me and Mistelle (it was her birthday too)



Me on the stage at the Pub (taken with my friends camera phone)

I May Hate Myself In The Morning

"I May Hate Myself In The Morning"

Ain't it just like one of us
To pick up the phone and call after a couple drinks
Say how ya been
I've been wondering if maybe you've been thinking 'bout me
And somewhere in the conversation
An ole familiar invitation always arrives
I may hate myself in the morning
But I'm gonna love you tonight
Everyone's known someone they just can't help but want
Even though we just can't make it work out
Well the want to lingers on
So once again we wind up in each other's arms
pretending that it's right
I may hate myself in the morning
But I'm gonna love you tonight
I know it's wrong
But it ain't easy moving on
So why can't two friends
Remember the good times once again
Tomorrow when I wake up
I'll be feeling a little guilty, a little sad
Thinking how it used to be before everything went bad
I guess that's what is In lonely late night calls like this that we try to find
I may hate myself in the morning but I'm gonna love you tonight
I may hate myself in the morning but I'm gonna love you tonight

I left my conscience

"To hands between legs,/ to "whatever it takes"/To drinks at the club to the bar/To the keys to your car/To hotel stairs to the emergency exit door/To the love, /I left my conscience pressed Between the pages of the Bible in the drawer/"What did it ever do for me" /I say (I say, I say, I say) /It never calls me when I'm down /Love never wanted me" - Fall Out Boy

Good stuff right there!
So um...the Nashville trip...well that was interesting... Not what I was expecting AT ALL!!!
I really try to be a drama free person... I'm very up front and like to put things out there so drama doesn't happen to me! But someone I wasn't able to avoid it this time!

What I really hate is third parties

FYI-
if you ever have a problem with me or have a questions....FEEL FREE to ask me about it ...before you tell someone else all about it...please..
thanks...just wanted to but that disclaimer out
so I don't feel like writing right now...so
maybe more later on.


-Exie

Stupid

Night, lift up the shades
let in the brilliant light of morning
But steady me now
for I am weak and starving for mercy
Sleep has left me alone to carry the weight
of unraveling where we went wrong
And all I can do to hang on,
to keep me from falling into old familiar shoes
How stupid could I be
a simpleton could see
that you're no good for me
but you're the only one I see
Love has made me a fool
set me on fire
and watched as I floundered
unable to speak except to cry out
and wait for your answer
and you come around
in your time
speaking of fabulous places
create an oasis that dries up
as soon as you're gone
you leave me here
burning in this desert without you
Everything changes
everything falls apart
I cant stand to feel myself losing control
In the deep of my weakness I know
How stupid could I be
a simpleton could see
that you're no good for me
but you're the only one I see

-Sarah McLachlan

This is such a perfect song! I had to post the lyrics...
Today is a good day! (i should post those lyrics too...lol) Anyways, I'm about to go to sleep so I can go to work later this evening!
TOMORROW IS MY BIRTHDAY!!! YEA!

I'm so FREAKIN EXCITED about next week. I hope when I get to work this evening I'll the approval to switch a shift for next week so I can go ahead and buy my plane ticket.. I hope the prices haven't jumped up too much!

Alright Nap time

"Phoenix Down"... btw...I love MERIWETHER!

later...