Stupid

Night, lift up the shades
let in the brilliant light of morning
But steady me now
for I am weak and starving for mercy
Sleep has left me alone to carry the weight
of unraveling where we went wrong
And all I can do to hang on,
to keep me from falling into old familiar shoes
How stupid could I be
a simpleton could see
that you're no good for me
but you're the only one I see
Love has made me a fool
set me on fire
and watched as I floundered
unable to speak except to cry out
and wait for your answer
and you come around
in your time
speaking of fabulous places
create an oasis that dries up
as soon as you're gone
you leave me here
burning in this desert without you
Everything changes
everything falls apart
I cant stand to feel myself losing control
In the deep of my weakness I know
How stupid could I be
a simpleton could see
that you're no good for me
but you're the only one I see

-Sarah McLachlan

This is such a perfect song! I had to post the lyrics...
Today is a good day! (i should post those lyrics too...lol) Anyways, I'm about to go to sleep so I can go to work later this evening!
TOMORROW IS MY BIRTHDAY!!! YEA!

I'm so FREAKIN EXCITED about next week. I hope when I get to work this evening I'll the approval to switch a shift for next week so I can go ahead and buy my plane ticket.. I hope the prices haven't jumped up too much!

Alright Nap time

"Phoenix Down"... btw...I love MERIWETHER!

later...

"I can tell that we're gonna be friends..."

" I can tell that we're gonna be friends... we've had our ups and down / but you know that we've weathered the storm / and if we ever had some fights/ they always ended up in the quiet storm, warm in the bedroom/ a lil bit of heat / and a little bit of spice / but no 2 people got along all the time / alright so lets stick together like the Al Green song / cause you always do make me feel brand new / and ill always be lovin you my baby boo" - G. Love

I'm wide awake at midnight! Holla!! So anyways, I had to work last night, so I slept all day. Well actually I set my alarm to wake up around 1pm so my obnoxious alarm went off and I hit the snooze for a few times when I realized crap I don't feel good so I turned it off and went back to sleep. Because SERIOUSLY who in their right mind would set the alarm to wake them up at 1am? hmm? NO ONE so why should I? well I woke up around 3pm because at that point my phone would not stop ringing. So I woke up returned a couple calls, and still felt crappy! So took some ibuprofen and had some juice (white cranberry and strawberry...mmmm)! I talked to Jen for a little while on the phone. She was on her way back to Charlotte from Atlanta.
So, I sat on the couch and bought are we there yet on pay per view... (still feeling like crap), and well I fell asleep again!
I woke up around 9pm...great! Sooo, now I'll be up all night! and I have to go to church in the morning!

Anyways, so I woke up ate a lean cuisine and started playing on the computer. I updated my myspace page, changed my music video and some pictures....fun stuff!
Then I got a much needed phone call from a cute boy! Which made a lot of things that have been bothering me for about 3 weeks much much better!
So after that, I've been playing on the computer some more, on myspace and chatting a lil bit on the church singles site, and chatting with my friend Marshall.

Holla back yo!
I just got another phone call from a cute boy (yeah it's after midnight but I told him it'd be ok)! So, now i feel good! I love boys (ha)! Well this one in particular at least!
This one boy always keeps me laughing and makes me feel good! And he's really impressing me more and more.
I really have strong feeling for a boy... and I don't think he knows...well i think he has an idea but I don't think he realizes that it's real!

Anyways...soo...
MONDAY is my BIRTHDAY! YEAH! Unfortunately I have to work, but we're having a small little shin-dig at work! Then on Tuesday I'm going to baton rouge to Ninfa's to met some friends out there. A couple of my friends from work are suppose to come also! So it ought to be a good time! I'm excited! Then NEXT week I go to Nashville to the costume party! I'm SOOO ready for it! I hope I can get the costume ready though!
That's all for now.
-Exie



" How Stupid Could I be?...you're no good for me, but you're the only one I see."- Sarah McLachlan

"I keep telling myself...."

"I’m sitting out dances on the wall/ Trying to forget everything that isn't you/ I'm not going home alone/ Cause I don't do too well on my own/The only thing worse than not knowing/Is you thinking that I don't know/I'm having another episode/ I just need a stronger dose (Fall Out Boy)

So it's 8:30 a.m. and well I've been up since 3:30 am and that was after just falling asleep at midnight! Man... let me tell you this have one night off crap is well....crap!
Actually, my problem is that I went out last night with a couple friends that have margaritas and well when I got home at 10:30 last night I was ready to go to sleep after drinking a few margies!
But before I went to sleep I finally did something that I've been debating on whether or not I should do for a few weeks now...and I won't give many details because "he" might see this! :) But anything I feel much better now! Then after that I talked to my friend Mariah for a little while I had to tell her what I did. We had talked the past weekend for a long time about out men issues...yeah it was a long conversation!
As I told my dear friend Jen If it wasn't against my religion I'd be a lesbian!
So after I talked to Mariah I made a final decision on what I'm goign to be for the costume party in a couple weeks!
I think I'm going to make my costume, I think that will make it look the best, but I'm not sure if I'm crafty enough with the sewing machine yet to pull it off in less than 2 weeks! So I"m going to make some phone calls this afternoon to some friends to see if they can whip it up for me!
So since 3:30 this morning I've actually got a number of things accomplished! I cleaned the kitchen, washed dishes, ran a load of clothes, baked an angel food cake, and went grocery shopping. I bought a cool new trash can at wal-mart too! and I bought a pattern that I think will work for my costume idea!!!
When I was at work I ran into this guy that I work with! Don't you hate that? when it's 7am looking all grungy and you see people you know!
I wish I was sleepy, but I'm not yet! I have to go to work tonight so i hope I can get some more sleep!
I called headquarters Monday to see about switching what I had put for my first choice for the feast. I had put Tahoe as first choice but now I dont' want to go there. I want to go to Clearwater now, b/c that's where it seems most people are going to try to go. So anyways, I got a message yesterday morning from Mr. Davis saying that Tahoe and Clearwater are full right now and he thanked me for my "patience" because he's still waiting because so many people haven't turned in there feast request! COME ON PEOPLE!!! Send in your request some of us folks need to make plans!
I have this feeling I'll get this nice letter from HQ saying "You've been accepted to Corpus Christi!" ....then I will cry! :(
I really wish I could convince some others to come to Barbados! I think that's the best option but I just can't see myself going there by myself.
Guess i should have a better attitude and just pray and trust that God knows what He's doing! Right!?!
I'm really upset that I have to go to work tonight while my friends in Tn go to a Dave Matthews Concert!
I'm even more upset that we can't find tickets to the Ben Harper concert that will be going on while I'm up there visiting!
Ok...so I'm done ranting for the moment...maybe more later.
-Exie

Today

Hi...just started this blog...don't have much to say right now, still just checking it out. I have more written at myspace.com/exiern
So check that out if you want!
Much More later